I'm looking for a word or phrase that means something along the lines of "the exhilaration of taboo".
Here's the context for what I'm looking for: "It was strange and [blank] to walk around and see everyone's age so blatantly public."
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Edit: In the example sentence, one might replace [blank] with "gave us a frisson of Schadenfreude" or "... of superiority". Knowing others' ages is not taboo, I think, and no age is to be looked down upon, but one imagines some do.
How about: "it was strange and transgressive"?
Since what is breached here appears to be a norm or convention rather than a taboo, how about 'provocative', which is often used in a positive sense: it is not only base or improper sentiments which may be provoked but also serious matters like political opinions or aesthetic judgments. At the very least using 'provocative' leaves room for some ambiguity which is itself, well, provocative.
Check out Julia Kristeva's theory on abjection and the abject. I would use abject in this sentence.
The abject is a disturbance in identity and order that threatens the collapse of meaning, causing abjection, in which the viewer is rapidly and cyclically compelled and repelled. The abject blurs the distinction between "other" and "I." Kristeva identifies the corpse as the ultimate abject.
In your context, the blatant display of age evokes impending mortality, one that transcends the "other" elderly lives into the life of "I," a reminder that all bodies are biologically destined for failure. This evokes an existential breakdown in meaning, but as you described, there's a sense of exhilaration. That's the boomerang effect of the abject, it attracts (the exhilaration) and repulses (the taboo).