I am trying to think of a word, or phrase to describe this feeling. There is something more to my life, something meaning to happen or occur, and I don't know what it is. There is an anticipation of some sort, but I feel like I am always waiting. Everything is insignificant compared to what will happen. It may be a single event or something that changes everything. I'm not sure and I don't know a proper way to describe my wait for it. Thank you.
It's a Russian word I found in an online article covering 20 words not translatable into the English language.
This feeling is:
Your life sucks, no one even bothers you, or belittles you, but you are just dust in the wind, invisible. One day you meet someone really special, who grasps your self worth and understands you, no, sees you.
You know you have everything you have ever wanted, or could ever ask for. You know you should be happy, you want to be happy, but you can't.
You feel as if something is missing in a very big way. A hole in you that you can't place. What is it? Why can't I be happy? What thing am I missing?
That is toska.
You are missing the purpose that defines your soul. You haven't found the thing that you love most. You don't even know what you love most, because you don't know what it is you are missing.
Perhaps unfulfilled is what youu are looking for?
1 an unfulfilled hope, desire, dream etc has not been achieved: His dream of competing in the Olympics remained unfulfilled.
2 someone who is unfulfilled feels they could be achieving more in their job, relationship etc.