I am trying to think of a word, or phrase to describe this feeling. There is something more to my life, something meaning to happen or occur, and I don't know what it is. There is an anticipation of some sort, but I feel like I am always waiting. Everything is insignificant compared to what will happen. It may be a single event or something that changes everything. I'm not sure and I don't know a proper way to describe my wait for it. Thank you.
Its a russian word i found on a website, Covering 20 words not translatable Into the english language.
This feeling is like...
Your life sucks, noone even bothers you, or belittles you, your just dust in the wind, invisible. & one day you meet someone really special, who Grasps your self worth & understands you, no, Sees you. & You know you have everything you have ever wanted... could ever ask for. You know you Should be happy, you want to be happy, but you cant. Your just feeling like.... something is missing in a very big way. A hole in you that you cant place. What is it? Why cant i be happy? What thing am i Missing?
That is toska.
Your missing the purpose that defines your soul. You havent found the thing that you love most. You dont even know what you love most, because you dont know what it is your missing...
"Longing" refers to almost exactly what you're talking about. Having a longing is probably described by the adjective "wistful." To have a longing is to "yearn." Those are the only three I could think of. I hope this helped in any manner.
Perhaps unfulfilled is what youu are looking for?
1 an unfulfilled hope, desire, dream etc has not been achieved: His dream of competing in the Olympics remained unfulfilled.
2 someone who is unfulfilled feels they could be achieving more in their job, relationship etc.
It's probably a wish, imagination, or a dream. Or something wishful as wishful thinking.