Question: Looking for a word that implies lack of caring about the results / perception of others / ect... because you're already so far behind that you'll never really be significant.
It's not really 'nihilism' or 'ennui', because you still believe actions have "meaning", just compared to the vastness of existence, the enormous number of competitors, or the entrenched systems you're still insignificant.
In math, 'idempotent' and 'nullipotent' are kind of similar [from], except those imply you have literally zero effect on the world around you, not "you have a vanishingly small effect, that most creatures will never notice."
'Bǎi làn' (摆烂) in Mandarin, 'not to strive when knowing that one can't succeed' and leading to stuff like 'to smash a cracked pot' (破罐破摔) and 'dead pigs are not afraid of boiling water' (死猪不怕开水烫) is kind of the same modern idea. Why work 996 when I get food wages, and it adds a zero to someone else's account? Is there much like that in English?
Ex: Some humans already have $100B. Most humans have more like $10-100k. I can't really worry about money "that much" cause I'm already middle age and only have a 1/1,000,000th of the people at the top of the leader board. No matter how much I desperately hustle, I'm probably not making $100B.
Ex: I can't really worry about playing Counterstrike "that much", cause if I ever got anywhere Team Liquid they'd just stomp all over me.
Ex: The Earth and the Solar System are tiny specks even compared to the Milky Way. Before humans even reached the next star system, I'll probably be dead. I can't "really" worry about space travel that much.
Ex: I can't really worry about "that much", because there are 8,000,000,000 humans, who all want to prove they're better than me at everything.