For all the words I know, I can't seem to find the right word for this strange emotion. Some words I have tried come up short in one way or another. Confusion lacks the underlying hatred, annoyance ignores the triggering bafflement, skepticism is to forward to properly describe the abhorrent serenity caused by this mixture of emotions.
I tried looking on Google and several other sites for some synonyms for each of them, but my results kept coming up short. Even my 'Better-words-for-authors' guides proved insufficient. I'm starting to think there might not even be a single word in the English lexicon for this emotional mixture that is hatred and anger caused by disbelief.
Example of how it could be used:
He couldn't help but feel [blank], had the youtuber really sunken below rock bottom.
- or -
[blank] began to well up inside of her. The others had resorted to Orwellian new speak to justify their problematic behavior.