I am trying to describe low self esteem from guilt and shame in an essay and wrote the following:
I am accountable due to a vice of character or deed which absolves me of respect from others and myself
Problem is we are usually "absolved" of bad things so it doesn't ring right. We can "lose" good things, but I am looking for a way to describe "ridding oneself of a good he deserves". I've tried annuled, expunge, purge but they all don't feel right.