I've been trying to think of an adjective that expresses having two (or perhaps more) conflicting emotions or opinions simultaneously. Can anyone think of one?
ambivalence and ambivalency noun, originally psychol the concurrent adherence to two opposite or conflicting views, feelings, etc about someone or something. ambivalent adj. ambivalently adverb. ETYMOLOGY: 1912: from German Ambivalenz, from ambi-, modelled on 'equivalence'; see equivalent.
I suggest dichotomous:
involving or proceeding from something with seemingly contradictory qualities
I believe what you're looking for is 'cognitive dissonance'.
Soulrending, jiminied, jeckled, mentally eviscerated.
Whenever I cant find a word fit into a story I'm writing, I usually just write a short descriptive sentence, to fill in the blank and most times it sounds better than it would have originally. Or you could just make one up and hope it catches on: Shakespeare did it a lot.