Through the magic of introspection I've discovered something about myself. It doesn't feel pleasant to say but I feel good when I behave magnanimously. And when I say I feel good, I don't mean I feel good because I was nice to someone, it's more like I somehow feel superior to others when I show them generosity.
I realize this incredibly conceited of me but more importantly I am wondering if there is a word for this? Being overly magnanimous to satisfy your own inflated sense of superiority.