This is incredibly specific. But let's say you're an entry level employee at an office. Maybe you work in the mailroom, but really aspire to be promoted to Technician. You dream about the day that you will become a technician and finally get out of the mailroom.
One by one, all your mailroom friends become technicians, but you keep getting overlooked. And slowly, you begin to hate/resent not only them, but the role of technician. You decide that you no longer want to be a technician; that all technicians are morons.
It's like a hybrid of covetousness and resentment and jealousy. Is there a word for that?
Sample sentence: "I used to want to be a technician, but now I __________ that job."