I once read an article that used a single word to describe a frame of mind in which a person experiences momentary pleasure amidst overall discord; or perhaps the word was describing the opposite: A unified, holistic mind without discord.
The word may be related to dysphoria or equanimity. Any ideas?
As an example of such a frame of mind, in the discussion of the OCD condition Trichotillomania  here  there is a phrase:
“Immediate pleasure may be experienced but in the long run the person feels frustrated and embarrassed.”
This is a good example of the sense I’m looking for in this single-word-request.